I am as stubborn as they come. When I get mad, frustrated, or things just don't seem to be going my way I shut down. I stop my world even though the real world doesn't stop. It is moments such as these that make life difficult. Moments like these that I find it hard to carry on. To keep going. I try to smile. I try to look to God. I try to console myself. The problem is "I". There is no we or just somebodies to help me along my path. I am alone in my struggles. I am alone in my pain. I hate feeling like this. I have too many great things to do then to be stuck in a rut. So, what do I do?
I do the only thing I know how to do. I do the best I can. I take one day at a time. When that one day becomes too much, I take it moment by moment. There are mornings where I don't want to wake up. There are times where I wish time would half for me. There are times where I wish I was completely healed.
I believe it is getting harder because I am getting closer to my break through. Well, I am not sure how much longer I can weather this storm. So I hope the end of the storm is near. Until then, I will keep on taking it one day at a time.
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