Changing the Game

I tend to be attracted to guys who are not on my level. For many years, I have wondered why. Is it because I knew I would be the best thing that ever happened to them? Is it because I knew they could not every do any better than me. Or is it because my self-esteem is so low that I do not believe I can keep the attention of a professional man? This, my friends, is sad.
I know I deserve better. So, why am I afraid to be matched with a man with the same intellectual capabilities of me? For years, I have made excuses for the low-lifes I talk to but I believe it is time to put an end to it. Maybe I am growing up or maybe I realize I have gotten no where with the past guys in my life. You can't keep doing the same thing expecting different results. So, I am changing things up. I love a forceful man and I use to believe I could only have one if he was a street thug. Why can't a professional man be just as forceful? Let's think about it. The way a lawyer can walk into a room and argue his case commanding all the attention in a room with just words. That's forceful. Or the way a CEO of a Fortune 500 company regulates his employees and not only takes charge but stays in charge. The point is I am attracted to manly men. I like men enjoy working with their hands, who are not push-overs (only to me!), who love hard, and command respect. Professional men just didn't seem to offer that to me.
But I would never know if I don't at least attempt to date a professional man. So, I am changing the game. Opening my heart to something different: a good man.