It's like I just woke up this morning and realized everything I need to do because I am completely overwhelmed. I am so overwhelmed that I don't even know what to do first. My hands are shaking. My mind is racing. My only desire is to crawl back in bed and start again next week. I am too close to spring break to stop now. I am too close to accomplishing my goal of becoming a doctor to stop now. Yet, all I want to do right now is cry. I haven't felt this overwhelmed since my freshman year in college. I literally had a breakdown because all of the work was just too much for me. During that time in my life I didn't believe I would ever make it out of college but I did. When you are going through, it is difficult to see the end.
There are many approaches I could do. I could go talk to a counselor to help ease/clear my mind. I could ask my teachers for extensions. I could sit here and blog about all of the things I have yet to do or even begin to do. Or I could just sit here in a daze and allow the world to pass me by.
Do you ever just get tired of your life? I do. I am tired of having to watch what I eat because I want to look physically better. I am tired of having to work my ass off as work while every one else just lolly gags their way through life. I am tired of sitting in the cold in my apartment because I cannot afford to turn on the heat. I am tired of all the scratches on my hands and arms from my job. Shoot, I hate the entire uniform. I am tired of fighting with these AMCAS people for some assistance so I can afford to sign up for my MCAT. I am just tired and on this very morning, I work up with the burden of the world on my shoulders. My neck and shoulders have been tense for months. I know that this too shall pass.
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