God is Great Even When I'm Not Good

I am in between classes right now but I wanted to blog a little. It's been a minute since I have blogged. I have just been so busy living life to the fullest! I went to South Carolina to visit my sister and my bestest buddy. I had a blast! It was great to be around people who love me. I am so excited about the blossoming relationship between my sister and I! The MCAT is approaching rapidly! I am taking all the necessary steps to prepare for it so I am not worried about it. I am sometimes still in awe at how God works in my life. One of the many things I learned while in South Carolina is that God is always working. He is working in us, around us, through us, just everywhere! I know it seems like a simple message or realization but it truly was a blessing to step into the realm of God working in my life.
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To you:
Sometimes I worry, sometimes I care, and sometimes I just want to know why. I realize it is all talk and you may portray life like it is getting better but at the end of the day I know everything is the same. I don't think it was me holding you back. I was only holding you down. I offered you a way out but you weren't ready. And now you are ready, but you are stuck. I pray God answers your prayers in more ways than one (Who knows he probably already has). I pray God gives you the strength to step outside of yourself and really take a look around so that you can recalculate and redirect your life to the greatness you are destined for. I will always love you.
Sincerely,
Me

This Too Shall Pass

It's like I just woke up this morning and realized everything I need to do because I am completely overwhelmed. I am so overwhelmed that I don't even know what to do first. My hands are shaking. My mind is racing. My only desire is to crawl back in bed and start again next week. I am too close to spring break to stop now. I am too close to accomplishing my goal of becoming a doctor to stop now. Yet, all I want to do right now is cry. I haven't felt this overwhelmed since my freshman year in college. I literally had a breakdown because all of the work was just too much for me. During that time in my life I didn't believe I would ever make it out of college but I did. When you are going through, it is difficult to see the end.
There are many approaches I could do. I could go talk to a counselor to help ease/clear my mind. I could ask my teachers for extensions. I could sit here and blog about all of the things I have yet to do or even begin to do. Or I could just sit here in a daze and allow the world to pass me by.
Do you ever just get tired of your life? I do. I am tired of having to watch what I eat because I want to look physically better. I am tired of having to work my ass off as work while every one else just lolly gags their way through life. I am tired of sitting in the cold in my apartment because I cannot afford to turn on the heat. I am tired of all the scratches on my hands and arms from my job. Shoot, I hate the entire uniform. I am tired of fighting with these AMCAS people for some assistance so I can afford to sign up for my MCAT. I am just tired and on this very morning, I work up with the burden of the world on my shoulders. My neck and shoulders have been tense for months. I know that this too shall pass.